Shout, Shout, let it all out!

I just need to throw a little shout out to Colin and I for being on the ball for things that we have planned for the next little while. Since we are hibitual procrastinators I think that we are doing pretty awesome. Today we got our tickets for Louis CK -which will mark the beginning of my birthday celebration! I also, decided to suprise Colin with tickets to see "The get up kids" at the end of October, since he is always talking about how excited he is that they are playing. We also, bought our Bus tickets for Hamilton to see Aaron Sept 12 -13. PLUSSS Colin has booked and purchased everything else for my birthday weekend.

All we have left to do is actually PAY for the marathon! (which until this moment I just keep forgetting about).

Also, this morning I realized we will be spending 3/5 weekends in October in Toronto. Spring move can not come soon enough!

Plus, I will head home for Thanksgiving - I feel like I haven't been there in forever, and I miss my mom!!

In my fury of planning I also planted the seed to Tina to throw another wicked Halloween Party, since I already have my costume planned out and her party last year was amazing! ALSO Colin is going to dress up! I can't believe he hasn't dressed up in 5 years! That's just blasphamy. So now, that I have let that all out, I can start focusing on September, since that is the month we are about to enter, and all I can think about is October. (mostly because it is the greatest month of all time.)

Ok that is all, three posts in one day = I AM BORED on a late shift.

Or how we thought those days would never end...

This song is playing on repeat in my head today. Mostly because I spent a good part of my afternoon catching up with Ortal, and that song reminds me of the last time we partied together. We have seen eachother a few times since then, but I always think back to last spring and that song. I can't believe how much has changed since then, actually I can't believe how much has changed, in BOTH our lives since the day we met; it seems now like it was a whole other life.

She has always had an awesome connection to me, and has always known right when I need to talk, no matter if its good or bad, or three am, I can expect her call. Today was catching up on many good things in my life and in hers. She is a wonderful friend, and the strongest most amazing woman I have ever met, that girl has lived the lives of about 10 people and she is only 26!

Her fourth, yes FOURTH baby is due Decemeber 2nd and since she will finally have some time off, I am going to head over at some point and visit the family. I haven't seen my dear God-Daughter Addison, since christmas, and haven't seen Mika or Noah since...I don't even remember! I am excited to meet the new member of the Dolhan residence too!
Hopefully, the fact that we are planning this in August, means we will be able to work out a visit. One thing about growing up, is that your schedule is packed before you know it, I can't believe I am scheduling in friends for months and months down the way.

Pump pump, pump it upppp

Today we had our department work out at 7am. It was my late day, so I was less than thrilled, but it wasn't so bad. I am actally really happy it was my late day, gave me a chance to come home and do things I needed to do, although, instead of things I need to do, I curled up on the couch and passed out until 5 minutes ago. Oh well, still a success, and I made my ass back into the gym finally. The first time back is always the hardest, now I am excited to go back. I need to keep commited to boosting my cardio for the marathon in Toronto. I may actually even make it back to the gym in the morning again...but I am not going to get too ahead of myself.
Now, I must prepare for le work day.
There is much more to update...I work till 9, stay tuned.

"we've got eachother and thats a lot for loooove"

As every post has made totally clear, Colin is the greatest boyfriend of all time. He started planning and putting my birthday plans into action, although I am well aware of all the fun things we will be doing, I do not know where we will be staying (that is the suprise). We also added seeing Louis CK in London (assuming we can get tickets) to Thursday night. We nixed the Grease play idea, when we found out it was a highschool production. I am very excited for our marvolous trip to Toronto. I can't wait till we actually live there, since in October we will be headed down at least three times!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4u2ZsoYWwJA

Weekend update: LIFE IS WONDERFUL

Friday we went out to the fox and the fiddle with work people, who really remain some of the best drinkers I know! We had so much fun we promised everyone to have a house warming party at the end of September - which means a) we need to stop making promises after jagerbombs, b) we need to get our ass in gear to finish decorating and c) we are going to have a BLAAAAST!
After drinking nearly too much we headed over to Call the Office with Darcy to see "The Bad Ideas", I am totally in love with them, and basically plan my life around their perfomances. I told this little fact to Chance to which he responded "well hurry up and get married and we can play at your wedding". (which in fantasy, that would be amazing, so long as Chance promised to kept his pants on.)

Saturday Colins parents picked us up to head over to Blaise and Jenny's for Danielle's first birthday - which was...well a one year olds birthday party, but nonetheless I love hanging out with his family. Afterward, we were beyond exhausted from the night before and decided to see Halloween 2...wasn't bad, even though I spent 90% of the movie with my hands over my eyes, I do enjoy that it actually has a point to it. Also, I must note the extreamly creepy guy sitting alone behind me, at first I expected him to take a knife out and kill us, but then he drapped his sweater over his lap...you can use your imagination as to what you think he was doing.

Sunday has been a very relaxing day, as we always try to make it. Sat around watching baseball and drinking coffee, talked to my mom forever before heading over to coffee culture for some lunch. Colin is currently at baseball, and I am going to suprise him with pad thai, so I am anxious for his return! Probaby watch 8 hours of Entourage and then gym VERY early in the AM.

Guuhhh Haaaappy Buuurfday!

I realize my birthday is over a month away, but I enjoy being very plantastic. Originally Colin and I planned to go to Vegas with a few people, but alas in an attempt to be responsible adults, we have decided to postpone our Vegas trip. (having grown up expenses and savings plans are not a postitve about growing up). ANYWAY, although I love the get rediculous and drink your face off in a pretty dress birthday party, I have decided to go a different route this year! I figured that because I am headed to Aaron's in September - with the majority of the most important people in my life (or at least the ones that know how to drink their faces off) I would can the drink fest party and go away for the weekend, with my dearest Colin. The plans are still in the early stages and knowing us, we will change things a few times, but right now, the plan is to head down Friday night after work. Since we loved the Ramada so much last time we plan on staying there. We just found out that there is a David Cross show Friday night http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gCUZ9GnmhE8

- which would be an excellent start to the night, followed of course by some drinking and dancing or dice rolling in Colins case - (I said I was blowing off the huge shindig, not blowing off drinking!)

Saturday will be very exciting - I am assuming we will be sleeping off the alcohol from the night before, but come sunset we are going to check out Nuit Blanche, it is an art festival that runs from sunset to sun up all over Toronto and I am out of my mind with excitment for it. I am also very grateful to have a boyfriend that is so interested in checking out avenues that he has never been exposed to before. (hey he liked the AGO!) Anyway, it is going to be amazing! http://www.scotiabanknuitblanche.ca/home.shtml

Top 5 Reasons life is amazing!

So, I know there were important things I wanted to post here, I am sure they were tantalizing thoughts full of intrigue and deep consideration…but alas my red wine hang over has caused me, not to feel sick, or headachy, but instead taken the ability to develop a complete thought away from me, and replaced it with a growing void.

Instead I will give a simple list of the top 5 things from the weekend.

1. Moving most of my things up to our apartment, the couch has finally made the living room look complete and very grown up! 2. The ability to relax in bed all morning, followed by sitting around drinking copious amounts of coffee.
3. Bonding with Colin’s family over a home cooked meal (turkey in August –I am IN LOVE)
4. Red Wine, Pad Thai and all that follows ;)
5. Watching “High Fidelity” (which has now officially been added to my favorites)

“As we grow better, we meet better people”

I have been doing a lot of thinking and reflecting on the last year or so. A lot has changed, for the better- of course. If I go into chronological order, this post will be a short novel, which is unnecessary, especially because those of you reading this, already know all the important points. Recently I was evaluating the path my life is on, Colin and I had a very impromptu conversation about where we would like to see our lives go. We originally had these conversation months ago, but that was more to evaluate if we were on the same path - thankfully we are, this time we looked into specifics. Clearly we are both growing more and more dissatisfied with working for GoodLife, after some discussion Colin decided that he wanted to pursue becoming a paramedic! At this point I was feeling rather lost as I had no idea, aside from the ESL plan what I could or wanted to do. After a lot of discussion and amazing support, from Colin and my go to advice giver Jenny I discovered a program through George Brown for ASL (sign language) basically you become certified to be an interpreter for the hearing impaired. Since we decided along time ago to move to Toronto in the spring, I decided to sign up for an intro course at Fanshawe for ASL in the mean time, to make sure it's something I want to do. When we move, I will take the courses part time.

In other change news, our department has gone completely down hill and we have applied to another department within home office. Management here is being super supportive surprisingly so, cross your fingers!

In the midst of all the life changes - moving in together, career and school paths etc, I have started looking at the people around me, some people have drifted or moved away, but I know they are still there. Some people were never people I wanted in my life and have since been erased from my memory. What I have noticed is that there are some people that I considered close, for the wrong reasons, people that really don't offer anything positive in my life, people that were only remaining involved in my life out of my feeling of obligation or habit. Because so much has gone on in the last few months, I have really discovered who matters and who doesn't.

I know that it is possible to stay close and stay connected to the people that matter most no matter where they are, or how often you see them, where some people can live right next door and you have no desire to connect with any more. Maybe I have outgrown them, or developed into someone that doesn’t desire their negativity, either way, it is a huge weight lifted. I have always felt very strong about cutting out people poison, but when it comes to people that have been around along time sometimes that is more difficult, like a bad relationship. I feel that as I am growing up and moving on, I am understanding more and more about what is important in the people that are important to you. The people that are important to me know they are, I don't have to remind them, and they never feel that I am not there. These people are people that I look up to for some reason, who I will be there for in a heartbeat and who actually contributes in a positive way to my life. I am not going to list these people; because a) that would be weird b) unnecessary c) I mentioned that they know who they are. I will give a special shout out to Jenny however, because she and I have been through every change in life together, we nearly killed each other in res, we have survived heartbreak together, and breaking hearts together, I give a lot of advice, but Jenny is the only person I actually go to and accept advice from. It amazes me that we don't see each other for sometimes years at a time, and yet when we do it's like we haven't missed a moment. We also seem to live pretty paralle lives, I love Jackson for Jenny, like she loves Colin for me!

What this long rambling means, is that as I am growing older, I have realized that life is too short to be around people that don't make you happy, and that force you explain yourself over and over again, for no reason accept to emotionally manipulte you. I feel free and so happy!

"We're here for a good time, not a long time"

Friday night Colin and I ordered in some Pad Thai, before hitting up the movies to see "The Time Traveller's Wife." (for our 5th month-aversary two days early) The movie was pretty true to the book, and did focus on Henry's darker parts of his life, which I was very happy to see.

Saturday was Colin's dad's big day.It was his Suprise party for his 70th birthday! 70th!?!
The party was also an oppertunity for me to meet the rest of Colin's family. It was an amazing night to say the least, the party was a ton of fun, and his family is wonderful. I had a blast with all of them - everyone drinking made it even better as we danced and sung the night away!

Sunday we took it pretty easy, I was pretty hungover and someone else was extremly hung over. (ha ha) We went to Winks for all day breakfast - which was actually really good, which is suprising since it is a bar. But we have been trying to make it to Winks for breakfast since we first started dating, it was only appropriate to do so on our anniversary!

Colin went to baseball and I went home to nap for about 100 hours. After dinner we went to the movies, again! We saw "The goods", (for the second part of our anniversary, on the correct date) the movie was a little stupid but overall pretty funny. Let's face it, if it has Jeremy Piven in it, I am going to enjoy it!

PICTURES...

Can you guess which one of us was the most hung-over?

How many lives do you live?

I had forgotten about this poem a friend of mine had written awhile ago. When I came across this picture I was delighted by the memory of it. I dug it up and thought I would post it.

--Paraphrasing Oscar Wilde

How many lives do we live and relive?
How many unsent letters
have I written and rewritten
on the pages of invisible notebooks?

We dream awake and asleep
reality barely shaking us sober
from the romances of our synapses
live three lives in one day
take a lover for an instant
go back to washing dishes
climb a mountain for a minute
go back to washing dishes
pour your heart out for an hour
finish shaving in the shower
kiss the hollows of their collars
give the cashier the two dollars

that you forgot to give her as you
fell in love with your own stories
making plotlines for the histories and futures
of people you barely know
people you barely know
turn into the love you've always needed
fall in love with your own image
that you cast upon their forms

How many lives do you live

"and we don't notice any time pass, we don't notice anything "

Because he is very thoughtful, Colin is taking me to see "The Time Traveller's Wife" on Friday for our 5 montha-versary. I actually read it just over a year ago, and it looks like its cinematic attempt might not fail at life. That being said the book focus' a lot of attention on the darker parts of Henry's life, which was actually something I enjoyed more than the love story itself; I hope they don't compleltly glaze over those details, in an attempt to make the movie more "Hollywood". Whichever way they decide to go with the film, I am sure I will enjoy it, and nothing could be as bad as changing the ending to "My Sister's keeper".