Love is the answer, at least for most of the questions in my heart.

Just wanted to wish a very HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to my beautiful mom and to my fantastic step father John. I wish nothing but love and happiness to the two people that taught me what love is supposed to be!

Addison Felicia Marie Dolhan

My God Daughter Addison fought H1N1 pretty hard early on in the winter. She managed to kick it's butt, but while in the hospital they discovered that she has a heart problem that will require open heart surgery. She has a hole in her heart that they are going to be repairing. Hard to imagine this girl with a hole in her heart, since she is the happiest most loving little girl I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. While they assure Ortal and Thomas that it is a low risk procedure, it is still open heart surgery. When they learned this, Ortal was 7 months pregnant with Hyleigh, how these two find the strength to do all that they do, I will never understand. They are defiantly an inspiration. The whole thing really puts things into perspective about what matters in life, and what we waste our energy worrying about or being upset about.
Anyway, I thought I would post the song that Ortal wrote about Addison, because it is beautiful, just like they are.

Addison

Her dump truck rolls back and forth
My heart melts, despite all the hurt
I pray to G-d that there will come a day
When my baby won’t have to play, all alone
When I won’t be waiting by the phone
To hear about the inevitable day
She calls me ‘mama’, I smile, and I turn away
I look at her and wonder what she would do, if she knew
A mother lost in doubt, a child she cannot live without

Happy Addy never knew until I told her the news
She never heard me ask my lord for strength
Give me the hurt; tell me there is reason for hope
Don’t take it all away, give me one day, day after day
She was your child first but now she is mine, and all I ask
Is you keep her that way.

Happy Addy never saw the tears flowing down, as I asked you
For forgiveness as I asked for your compassion, and I know that
I don’t have the power to make it all go away
The power is all in you, and all I am left to do
Is give in to your plan, for reasons unknown
I led me a stray, and somehow you never let me go

Happy Addy makes my home the home I never knew
Brings me back to all that is true
The heart of a lion with a face of an angel
An angel here on earth
Let the sins of the ones that love her keep her near
So that I shall never stop to not fear.
Happy Addy laughs and giggles
In a world with so much pain & sadness
With a smile that lasts forever, I hold her tight
And ask you G-d to give my Addy a new life

The Lovely Bones

Since it was pouring all day yesterday, we grabbed our umbrellas and hit up Rainbow for a matinee playing of The Lovely Bones.
I read this book a little over two years ago and fell in love with the heartbreak and rich detailing of this story.
The movie had a lot to try to accomplish, mostly involving things that are not tangible - heaven, your personal heaven and emotions. I have to say that overall this movie was not nearly as good as I had expected, it seems to be the movie that ALMOST made it.
Let's start with what I didn't like: The "in between" scenes, drag on way too long, and are not nearly as descriptive as they need to be, to have relevance to the movie, having the scenes last so long, make the movie seem too long and ruin all of the good work the movie manages to do.
The things I did like: The actors, every single one, was a perfect match to their character and did it supreme justice. The way they visually show her death and the way she was murdered was simply spectacular. A scene with her younger sister inside her murder's house, was slow, detailed, and so suspenseful, you felt like you were in fact the one invading his home. Every sound, every breath was extraordinary.
While there are only a few things I didn't like about the movie, unfortunately those details cost the movie a great deal.
All in all, if you have read the book, you will appreciate what the movie does accomplish. If you haven't read it, you will be bored, and likely find the movie too weird for your taste.

“If you live to be 100, I hope I live to be 100 minus 1 day, so I never have to live without you.”

Have I mentioned how much I love weekends? And Spending those weekends with my best friend, who also happens to be the love of my life?
(don't worry Jenny and Mom, I still consider you my best friends too!)
Didn't do a whole lot this weekend,we made a beautiful french toast breakfast yesterday, watched some movies, hung out with Darcy and went grocery shopping. Today we had planned on doing a little skating after our banana pancakes, but since it is raining out, I think we may nix that idea...I'll keep you posted.

Kissed my neck with a crooked, cracked fang.

Last night Colin surprised me with a movie date. We decided on "Daybreakers". I have always been a huge fan of vampire based story lines, way before the whole Twilight phanomanon, so I was pretty excited to see this movie.
Unfortunately the movie was pretty terrible. To start, the main Vampire's name is EDWARD and he doesn't drink human blood (really we couldn't think outside the box on this one?) if we are going to borrow characters, we might as well steal ideas too, they have the whole amber eye/red eye thing happening.
I have to say, I am a little bit of a Vampire purist. While I can accept different ideas on certain aspects of the Vampire lore, one thing I can't stand is making them BORING and with no real background. The thing about the Vampire, is that they are supposed to be sensual. The whole point behind them, is that they lure their pray by being irresistible, and even when they are drinking their blood, it seems sexual not dog/banshee like and messy. So basically what this movie brought to the table was boring typical American's that drink blood instead of McDonalds - no passion, no deep and bruiting hot vampires in search of a soul; then they added just enough cheese, to make your roll your eyes at the most "scary" moments we are talking slow walk while hair blows in the wind, awkward "funny lines" by the humor relief character, and Ethan Hawke dressed like Harrison Ford in his Star Wars Days, and then ended it like a 12 year old's wet dream minus the boobs.
Basically this movie was trying to send the message that once a resource is used up, we are screwed (in our world water, oil etc) but because of the Twilight madness, instead of creating a movie that discusses just that, they decided to cash in on the hype of Vampires.

However, the date itself was a blast and I loved the surprise movie idea! In the future, I am going to have to stick to the older Vampire stories and be wary of anything put out AFTER Twilight - and even Twilight is pushing it.

To cut or not to cut?

Lately I have been pretty bored with my hair. It has grown super long, and I am just bored and annoyed with it. So I have been considering doing the unthinkable....CUTTING IT OFF! I want something a little bit more polished and elegant looking, instead of my wild long hair that I never do anything with outside of flat iron. Here are some pictures of what I am aiming at... I really want something I can actually style easily, not just hang there...Thoughts? Ideas? Should I or shouldn't I?

I'm hooked on a feeling, I'm high on believing, That you're in love with me

This weekend was our 10 month anniversary! We kicked off the celebration by watching Speed, I don't think I have seen that movie from start to finish since it's original release on VHS. I have to say, it is pretty great. Saturday we had a pretty great sleep in, french toast breakfast and our first DAY skate at Victoria park! Saturday evening my friend Paul came down from Guelph for a great Pad Thai dinner and a few drinks at winks. Colin and I came home and watched Kill Bill 2, which Colin had never seen, being my favorite of the Kill Bills I was more than happy to share the experience with him!

Sunday Brianna and I went to Smitty's for brunch, which was inexpensive and delicious - my favorite combination. After brunch we came back to our apartment so I could open Brianna's world to The Jersey Shore. After wasting about two hours we went to Silvercity to see Avatar in 3D. When we got there, we ended up having to kill another hour, as Avatar at 3pm was sold out!
I hadn't even planned on seeing Avatar, I had no idea what it was about, and thought that I wasn't nearly nerdy enough to see it, but I have to say it was pretty incredible.

Sunday night, Colin and I watched the sloppy mess that was the Golden Globes. I am not sure where everyone bought their dresses, but I am pretty sure that they were all second hand from a used bridesmaid store.

All in all the weekend, was everything I like it to be, filled with fun and hanging out with my favorite person in the world.
On the one hand I can't believe it has already been 10 months, but on the other, I can't remember my life before this amazing man came into my life. I have said it before, and I will keep saying it - I am so happy and so lucky to have Colin in my life!